This is where I yearn, where I dream. This is the home of things that tickle my fancy.

I am honestly terrified that I am going to be just as alone for the rest of my life as alone that I am now.

It’s more than just ‘wahh I don’t have a boyfriend, poor me’. It’s actually to the point that I don’t feel close to my family, I don’t feel like I can be 100% honest with anyone, I don’t have a ‘bestie’, and any man who has ever told me that he loves me has either hurt me or is gone. 

I’m scared. Nothing is making it better. This scares me so much that it’s making it even harder to reach out. I can’t try to smile anymore, because I feel like I’m fake and start to cry.

Even right now, it’s hard to breathe. Everyone says, ‘It’ll get better. It will!’ 

…When? I am losing hope so quickly. I don’t think there is any help coming. For every good day I have, I feel guilty. I feel punished by the universe for something that I’m not even sure of. For every moment of sunshine, I have to endure days of tears.

 I just want to be happy again.

I want to be me again.

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lightspeedsound:


madelione:


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amber-and-ice:


aflyingcontradiction:


sword-meets-rose:


feministkitten:




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i wrote a paper as a senior in high school about this and when tracking the unhealthy relationship symptoms i found this out too. fucking a.




THIS is a legitimate reason to think Twilight is problematic. Not “oooh, but it’s girly literature cause the vampires sparkle and all the teen girls are into Edward”. As funny as some of the sparkly vampires jokes are - and they really sometimes are - Twilight’s very unique take on vampires is the least of the series’ problems, yet this criticism gets heard a lot more than the criticism of people who have noticed that something isn’t quite right in the relationship between Edward and Bella.


I brought this up every chance I had when I was working with the youth theatre girls this summer. There was one in particular who was way gaga over Edward and how she wanted a boyfriend just like him, so I told her “Oh, you’d be ok with a guy who followed you everywhere, invaded your privacy, ignored your feelings, sabotaged your friendships, and isolated you from everyone you’ve ever loved? And nearly killed you on several occasions?”
And I literally watched the switch flip in her head.


Problematic doesn’t even begin to describe it. 
When Edward leaves Bella that time she literally goes into the woods, lies down and waits for him. Then she tries to come near death all the fucking time so that he would come back for her. What the fuck kind of role model is that for young women?
Ew ew ew I hate Twilight.


when i was dating my exboyfriend years ago, i thought it was so amazing that our relationship was just like twilight……..guess who woke up and smelled the psychological and emotional abuse?


I will forever reblog this shit, mainly because what the fuck, stalking and wanting to eat your girlfriend is neither cute nor legal

lightspeedsound:

madelione:

mgatsby:

amber-and-ice:

aflyingcontradiction:

sword-meets-rose:

feministkitten:

i wrote a paper as a senior in high school about this and when tracking the unhealthy relationship symptoms i found this out too. fucking a.

THIS is a legitimate reason to think Twilight is problematic. Not “oooh, but it’s girly literature cause the vampires sparkle and all the teen girls are into Edward”. As funny as some of the sparkly vampires jokes are - and they really sometimes are - Twilight’s very unique take on vampires is the least of the series’ problems, yet this criticism gets heard a lot more than the criticism of people who have noticed that something isn’t quite right in the relationship between Edward and Bella.

I brought this up every chance I had when I was working with the youth theatre girls this summer. There was one in particular who was way gaga over Edward and how she wanted a boyfriend just like him, so I told her “Oh, you’d be ok with a guy who followed you everywhere, invaded your privacy, ignored your feelings, sabotaged your friendships, and isolated you from everyone you’ve ever loved? And nearly killed you on several occasions?”

And I literally watched the switch flip in her head.

Problematic doesn’t even begin to describe it. 

When Edward leaves Bella that time she literally goes into the woods, lies down and waits for him. Then she tries to come near death all the fucking time so that he would come back for her. What the fuck kind of role model is that for young women?

Ew ew ew I hate Twilight.

when i was dating my exboyfriend years ago, i thought it was so amazing that our relationship was just like twilight……..guess who woke up and smelled the psychological and emotional abuse?

I will forever reblog this shit, mainly because what the fuck, stalking and wanting to eat your girlfriend is neither cute nor legal

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consultingmoosecaptain:

dalekitsune:

the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu

See also:

Blood is thicker than water The blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.

Meaning that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth.