when your friends do something cool without you
I am honestly terrified that I am going to be just as alone for the rest of my life as alone that I am now.
It’s more than just ‘wahh I don’t have a boyfriend, poor me’. It’s actually to the point that I don’t feel close to my family, I don’t feel like I can be 100% honest with anyone, I don’t have a ‘bestie’, and any man who has ever told me that he loves me has either hurt me or is gone.
I’m scared. Nothing is making it better. This scares me so much that it’s making it even harder to reach out. I can’t try to smile anymore, because I feel like I’m fake and start to cry.
Even right now, it’s hard to breathe. Everyone says, ‘It’ll get better. It will!’
…When? I am losing hope so quickly. I don’t think there is any help coming. For every good day I have, I feel guilty. I feel punished by the universe for something that I’m not even sure of. For every moment of sunshine, I have to endure days of tears.
I just want to be happy again.
I want to be me again.
Do you ever hear your voice echo against the silence, and you realize just how alone you are?
the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu
Blood is thicker than waterThe blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.
Meaning that relationships formed by choice are stronger than those formed by birth.